First and foremost, I purchased all my veggies for my garden (bell peppers, onions, tomatoes, peas, cabbage, cauliflower, strawberries, lettuce, and potatoes. And my 4x4 plant beds should be coming to my door any day now. Secondly, I started riding my bike to work instead of taking my car and my thighs and calves have been on fire and yes that is my bike in my office lmao. Third, I stopped eating carbs at least for a couple months I don't think I can do that for a whole year I love bread too much. So we are just gonna say 3 months -sighs wish me luck. Lastly, I am back in school taking up a GIS course so I can have more technical skills. Plus GIS coupled with my Urban Planning degree will give me more options

Frustration

What do you do when you have done all you can do? What do you do when you have done everything you were supposed to? What do you do when you have done everything they have asked of you? What do you do when your hands are tied? What do you do when you can no longer take the abuse? What am I supposed to do?!?! Why am I frustrated? Why am I allowing this to bring me down? Why am I taking this to heart? Why am I feeling like I lost? Why am I concerned with how they feel? Why have I not left yet? Why have I not stood up for myself and what I believe is to be right? Why haven't they stepped in to do their part in the situation? Why hasn't no one saved the day? WHY WHY WHY is all I can ask but at the end of it all I still remained frustrated I still remain upset I still remain perplexed about it all. Wondering what am I speaking of ? I am speaking of my job yep that is it nothing dramatic nothing amazing just my job. So, frustration leave me be because despite it all I still have hope that good will come of this.

When I was at my wits end today something extraordinary happened that brightened my day even if it doesn't go as planned it served its purpose of giving me hope and that's all I really ever needed.

Gone Like the Wind

I know people say this quote all the time "where has the time gone?" Well I really need and want to know?!?!? Even when I am at work having a boring day, which is supposed to drag on it doesn't! Feels like time has gone into warped speed!

It makes me feel really uneasy one minute it is 8:30 am the next minute I look at the clock it is 2:45 pm! Makes absolutely no sense. At times I wish I could say, "Hey father time take it easy my man lay off the caffeine and would you mind if we could push back the hours a little.

The Battle

My parents broke up around the time when I was 3 or 4 I can't even really remember because I didn't care then and I don't care to this day. Sounds really evil and messed up right? Well lets be honest and adult about this situation folks, some people just do not belong together and my parents are included! They are wonderful people without one another lol. So, I grew up splitting my time between both parents you know the common routine -weekdays at moms and weekends with pops-. 

 Was great as child because I got two birthdays, two xmas, two easters and so on (you get the point). It was the best thing ever when one parent got on your nerves just go to the others. *Sighs* those were the days. However this is where the problem lies now I am adult my parents are still stuck in that god for saken routine! Both of them be low key fighting for my time specially on holidays!!!!!!!!! 

Nevertheless, something that was so great as a child and was my simple fix to everything became my worst complex nightmare as an adult! You ask why? Well I am here to tell you its not fun having to drive all over the place to appease people when all you want to do is sleep because you just worked all day or been at school for hrs. I did this for a couple years and at the end of it I just end up being exhausted and resenting holidays. Hmm so at the end of it all , all jokes are on me lmaoooooooooo .

Yes, I have to laugh at myself because not once when I was a child did I think of all the ripping and running around my parents have to do just so each one could spend a little time with there lil girl. Just want to thanx my parents for every mile and gallon of gas they had to purchase or put on their cars. Love the both of you suckaz 

-Over n Out-

Long Time Coming - I Finally Decided on a Blog Name!

Sad I know but it took me awhile to even start this blog. I've wanted to do it for quite sometime, and I will be honest I am one of those people that always want to do something, but when its showtime I chicken out! So its safe to say I like to play the background a lot. So even doing something as simple as starting a blog is a big step for me. Nevertheless, I don't want this to be my last big step, and I plan on doing a lot of things out of my comfort zone from here on out- for the rest of my life. Self Growth is a must folks!